One of those days that you already know the end

(written monday 13th, april)

Treasures

Take one minute of your life and count how many you have. They can be things that you put in your neck, hands or feet. They can be necklaces that saw you almost loosing your life very far away from home. They can be remembers, feelings, pains (sometimes literally). I’m sure we all have these things that we try to protect, that we want to conserve.

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Probably there is only one and, at the same time, many reasons why I’m working in the daylight without any kind of illegal or legal substances. To have an adventure is like you don’t know even if you are in the correct train when travelling, or like the time when I had to sleep back-to-back, in a bus returning home from another city with someone I used to enjoy to talk with.

It’s definitely a treasure when you want to cry and be upset and smile and the strongest feelings you can have when you are remembering or interacting with them. Whenever I put my necklace for example. They are places as well. They are scares or abrasions that never got closed (heridas ke nunca cerraron).

Some passages are to be crossed alone. You could get hurt while trying, but as my father showed me, the honour is the most important thing. Even if you get killed in the passage, you will never loose the honour. It’s kind of funny but it will be up to you, even if you want your dream to decide it for you. You will get a kiss, one last look, one last night, but anyway you have to face it and be a man.

I was wrong in the last post when I said happiness or sadness can be reached with 2 words. I have just realized that it can be reached with one, if you know how to pronounce it. It’s the quality; it’s like a Peruvian movie. Yes, the Peruvian movies where you can see very old stairs and you hear the sound of them. And while you are going up the stairs, or the mountain in some uncommon cases, you are sure that what is waiting for you after it will not be good or bad but different, strange, bizarre, perhaps so human that you might have the possibility not to live after it or get addicted if we continue with the Peruvian stairs analogy.

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I think it was going great. Unfortunately I’m will have to stop it.

For all the respect you deserve Cymrus. You will probably have your conclusion after.